It’s over

Okay — the two-day funk has ended.

TBK and I were both so damn flat beginning Tuesday and extending through most of today. We drifted, Night-of-the-Living-Dead-style, through most of yesterday’s anniversary thing and then again into today — kept moving because we felt we had to and to try to find things to keep our minds off the persistent reminders of all that happened a year ago. The light we ran toward was last night’s long-awaited dinner with fellow MetroBloggers — only to have our participation cut far too short by an attack of what could best be described as The Crud. I NEVER get sick — but I was felled by a combination of nausea and, oddly, panic — not about what was happening around me but by simply not knowing why I was feeling that way so suddenly. It hs never happened before. Things were slightly improved this morning — enough to go to work for a bit — but I was awake for three hours in the middle of the night for no apparent reason.

Turns out, in talking to several other people, I was not alone. Much of the city has been in the same rickety boat for about two days — not so much in mourning or in sadness but in remembering the Not Knowing that we all felt a year ago. Not knowing about our houses, our jobs, our families, our favorite hangouts, our friends, our neighborhoods, our futures — just not knowing. For weeks on end. It’s THAT feeling that came back — at least briefly. But once we got up and back to working today, we’ve stabilized. Ah, sweet screwed up, dysfunctional and inconsistent consistency. We’re back to normal this evening.

Chris has posted a thank-you list and I want to do the same, but gimme a day or two to think about it. We’ve been so much more fortunate than so many others, since our troubles have been largely business-oriented. True — the lack of income has led to far too many hardships on the domestic front. But being able to actually Go Home puts us leagues ahead of thousands of others, so my attitude is, again, I’m a lucky sumbitch.

Like Heather, I’ve also been noting the change in the afternoon/evening light. I’m able to water the hibiscus out front a little earlier in the day and the jasmine and mandevilla are having more success climbing the utility pole on the corner outside. As we move toward autumn, on the calendar if not much on the thermometer, maybe I can reset myself toward doing my own climbing a little more successfully.

7 Comments so far

  1. Kudzukid (unregistered) on August 31st, 2006 @ 9:02 am

    Hey Craig –
    Sorry to hear that you were feeling bad. I can hear that sadness and fatigue in the voices of some of my friends. It’s no wonder that people in New Orleans were dragging and getting sick. The emotional toll is enough to create a nasty malaise.
    I may be headed your way this weekend. If so, I’ll call ya. Let’s get a beer. I’d love to meet you and TBK.

  2. leanna (unregistered) on August 31st, 2006 @ 9:13 am

    i can not get over how long it took the goverment or anyone to do anything about all this. i mean when this stuff happens here it is a diffrent story i live in florida so with the response we got in 04 that they treat the whole thing like a race issue which it is . it is sad that it ends up like that . leanna in stcloud florida

  3. Craig (unregistered) on August 31st, 2006 @ 9:19 am

    Bring it on Liz — we’d be glad to see you. We’ll have a houseful, so we plan on being around all weekend.

    Leanna — I lived in FL during most of ’04, so I know where you’re at. But frankly, I blame most of the slow reponse on the sheer enormity of the task. There was total system failure at the start and the sheer size of the recovery means everyone is still adjusting and prioritizing. I’m just glad we’ve all found the resiliency to push it this far.

  4. Cade Roux (unregistered) on August 31st, 2006 @ 10:27 am

    I think there is something flu-like going around. I got in a really bad car accident last week, and starting Monday I was feeling a little headachey, and I figured it was just due to the accident. But it really felt more flu-like yesterday afternoon, and our daycare provider pulled up sick yesterday, too. I think the stress beats down our immune systems and then the bugs get their chance.

  5. Cade Roux (unregistered) on August 31st, 2006 @ 10:28 am

    It is kind of reassuring that life is so resilient – even if these bugs are that inconvenient.

  6. Carol (unregistered) on August 31st, 2006 @ 11:59 am

    I hope you are feeling much better. We’ll have to pull some sort of gathering together in the next couple of weeks to celebrate fall on the corner of Laurel and Third! And only good beer for you!!!

  7. Heather (unregistered) on August 31st, 2006 @ 2:25 pm

    The two day funk ended and now I am home from work sick – what is going on? I am glad you are feeling better, though, Craig

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